i remember…
when you said “I don’t get these feelings often.”
I wonder if you said that to her too. Doesn’t matter any more. Just curious. You become sketchier and sketchier everyday with each story I’m told.
usually…
you do your deep thinking at night. For some reason, i seem to be doing all of mine this morning.
#1 - I suddenly realized that I wouldn’t want to go back to you even if I could. Sure, it was fun. And sure, I’ve been wondering if that’s what you’ve been trying to do. But in reality, you made your choice a long time ago. And so did I. You’ve turned into a different person, not necessarily for the better either. I hope we stay friends, but you have a lot of growing up to do. Many people have seen that cruel side of you, not many like it. It makes me wonder how your last situation happened and how your current one is going to. What were you thinking??
#2 - I miss you. In a way that I just want to talk to you. I want to be able to run into each other instead of avoiding places because I know you’re there. I want to see what’s going on in your life, but also want us both to be happy.
#3 - You’ve come up a lot lately. I don’t know exactly what I want our association to be, but I’ve been thinking about making peace for a while now. I do wonder about you every once in a while and still think back to everything we did together…some of it made my favorite high school memories list. I just took down that picture of us because it was weird to have up.
#4 - I’m pretty sure I have some work to do. I need to fix something important because my hearts in the wrong place. I made a decision for the wrong reason and hope I can change it. If not, I know I can always fix it later on. I’ll be ok either way, but think this way will be better.
#5 - it’s weird being like this with you. I definitely don’t mind it, but I’m curious about what you are thinking. So many flashbacks. So little awkwardness(;
